Missing them :(

There's just something not right here. I'm missing them so damn much.Everything I do, remind me of the memory back there with them. Tears keep rolling down days by days. I missed the jokes, the laughter we used to had.I missed everything. I'm all alone here, surrounded by new people that make me wonder how they could accept me as what I am.I have to move on no matter what.I am not running away from my past, I am chasing my future.

You know what, sometimes it is okay not to chat with someone far from you all the time. I mean, you chat with him today does not mean you must chat again with him tomorrow. Or when you do not get to chat with him today, does not mean he forgets you. So I always tell myself it is okay to lose contact for a while. Maybe they will come back soon and find me eventually. Same if you do not need to text him all the time asking what he is doing, going where, etc etc. We should give him a space to miss us. Cewah.

The past.The more I think about it, the more I get hurt. It is so near, I cannot bear to remember any of it. I know I will remember because I never forget. But for once in mylife, can I pretend I forgot?

Now I don't really know what I am writing about,I guess this is just a piece of crap.Aargh,so lame.

Two-zero

and finally the digit is changing.
from one to two.
two sounds too old.
I'm now officially two-zero *gulp*

p/s: don't forget this for my two-zero birthday c(:

PM & MMS

Who says that being an O.C is NOOO fun.Sgt BESSSST kot. Well,the fact is that I wasn't so excited about being an O.C in the first place just because I had to come back 2 weeks early.
First week,ada kursus kat Melaka. The best part is the challenging explorace. Balik Penang balik on the 2nd week,MMS start.Saya jadi biro disiplin *mcm laa disiplin sgt kn*. Best kot dpt kenekan budak.HAHA!

This is the last thing I could do in Penang.Lepas ni I'm going to Shah Alam.Sedih sgt. Kalau fikir balik,nasib baik I join this PMMS, if not tak dapat nak spend the last moment kat Penang with my beloved friends.Tambah sedih lagi bila dapat family baru,family PM.The last few days before my departure,asyik mengeluarkan air mata je.Never thought I would be leaving them this early.

To all my beloved friends:
I'm really sorry for all the wrongs I've done since we've been friends. I've never thought of hurting any of your feelings or making you annoy. Kalau ada hutang yang kecik-kecik tu mintak dihalalkan, kalau yang besar tu bolehlah hantar surat layang mintak hutang. Thank you so much for being my friends and I do really appreciate it.

There's a story behind everyone's life. Each friend we make is a start of each story. Our story had a wonderful beginning. Hope this story never has an ending.

till we meet again,

dida with loads of love ;)